Essay Archive - Personal Writing: My First Murder
Personal Writing: My First Murder
I committed my first murder at the age of twelve. I had killed
before, but before there were always motives such as self defense and
protection of property. On December 25, 1991, however, I killed for the
carnal sake of killing. Taking this life did not feel wrong until the
fraction of a second after it was too late. I remember vividly the pride I
felt in my steady aim, the rifle-sights barely moving from the tiny target
I had chosen, and then the crushing suffocation which replaced pride as
soon as I squeezed my right index finger. I was told that it was alright.
My father said, "good job." Th....